It's been awhile since I've updated our "fertility status" so while I'm waiting for an opportunity to post pictures from the birthday weekend, I thought I'd let you all know where things stand.
We've finally gotten the results back from all the tests. We were labeled "very normal" except for one small test that left our Doctor saying things like "I would absolutely not recommend trying or getting pregnant in the next few months" Hah! Given our current track record, I don't think we have much to worry about! Not that we were really worried anyway...
The test that we/I failed was the thyroid test and I knew it was coming. See, back when I was 17 and heading off to college, I went in for the college physical. The Dr. asked if there was anything in my family background that they should be aware of and two weeks before, one of my family members had come back with abnormal results on a thyroid so I mentioned that in passing, not thinking much of it.
Well, turns out my thyroid was not functioning and they have no idea how long. I was skinny as a rail, had none of the obvious symptoms except exhaustion which is considered normal for a teen anyway. I feel like I've been tired most of my life so I never thought much of it, I've learned to function quite well on lowish energy and on days where I have "normal levels" I turn in to the energizer bunny and am unstoppable.
Anyway, they put me on meds and that was that. From time to time they'd retest and make sure things were somewhat normal. I guess I am blessed to not have the kind of case where it fluctuates weekly and the Drs are having to constantly change the dosage and meds.
Well, flash forward to several weeks ago when they pulled the thyroid test and hello, apparently that stupid thing is incapable of performing a days work! With my levels being higher than normal, the risk if I were to get pregnant now is that the baby wouldn't have enough thyroxin during the formative weeks (first 7 weeks they rely solely on the mother's thyroxin before their body has formed enough to produce it's own). If there isn't enough thyroixin, you are a higher risk for miscarriage, low birth weights, lower IQs and all the other general sorts of risks that seem to come along with any sort of "condition."
The Dr. seems convinced that once my thyroid is in line, pregnancy will be no problem, I'm not sure I quite share the same feelings as her but I figure God's got a plan in all of this and I'm grateful this is an area that we are "forced" to follow His master plan vs. my own.
Control is never an easy thing up.
Interestingly enough, I've been praying that God would bless us with fertility and if it's not in the cards for us to have kids right now that He would take the desire away. Well, wouldn't you know we have been surrounded by a lot of miserable parenting lately and terribly bratty kids (see my last post for an example), that's left us rather relieved that we have some time to get our act together.
Ultimately, we've decided to ignore the Dr.'s advice and continue "trying" and not worry about the results. Clearly my body has protected itself so far and hasn't allowed itself to get pregnant with abnormal levels, so I don't think that it will get pregnant until things have righted themselves. And if it's not my thyroid that's preventing the pregnancy than I guess we will simply get to fall in that lovely "unexplained" category of which medical science can't quite figure out God's design/plan.
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future..." Jeremiah 29:11
I have confidence that that hope and future contain children for us, hopefully this post hasn't read as us giving up, because that's definitely not the case. Some might mistake peace for lack of desire. The only thing that has changed for us is the peace. I thought I had peace before but it would waffle back and forth between me being ok with waiting on God to being overwrought with worry and sadness. Throughout the last months it's steadily grown to being decidedly more peaceful and decidedly less stressed.
Up until very recently, everything I did, I worried and debated whether it would stress or exhaust my body too much and result in another negative test. Now, I'm in a place of focusing on living healthy and doing the best I can to care for my body and health just because it's something I want to do for me and not because I want it to result in a positive test. If the positive test happens, praise God! If not, I've still gotten myself to a much better place. I've gained a lot of health back since the "black hole" time period of my life, but now I want to see how far I can take it!
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